Don’t Damn Me!

would it be right to mete out punishment that you once received?
knowing of it’s damage and ability to deceive.
does it even matter if it’s right or wrong?
knowing how it damages the ability to believe.
would it be right to allow someone to trust?
knowing how damaged you are.
would it make things right (justification)?
knowing the damage the same thing caused you.

is it really a world of dog eats dog?
where damage is the only way.
or is it a case of being a cunt?
to dull the damage already being felt.

Damage makes the world go round.
It lends a sense of justice to thoughts that were once brushed aside.
It allows something within you to flourish
something that was once frowned upon
a part of you that once brought shame
now there is no shame (or pain)
the surroundings have changed
the rules changed with it
some people eat to survive, even if it’s taboo
even if it’s the flesh of someone that once sat next to you
when surroundings change and you feel you have to survive
you reach deeper within yourself to find an answer
sometimes the answers are bitter to the taste
sometimes you can see they come at an awful price
but because that will to survive is so strong
you’ll accept them anyway
at first you fool yourself into believing it’s a price worth paying
maybe even rely on the end justifying the means
but sooner or later you begin to see the damage it has done
you start to see there’s no going back
worse still there’s no desire to go back

It’s a sad day when you realise the part of you that once was frowned upon
is calling all the shots and pulling none of it’s punches
it’s sadder still (i suppose) when the desire to frown doesn’t even show
when it becomes acceptable
hell, when it becomes enjoyable
when all ideas of right and wrong become confused
when the things that once raised a smile become the things to invoke a frown
everything turned upside down
survival has a lot to answer for
evolution doesn’t always give the best answers
just the best answers for that particular moment in time
for that particular surrounding
for that particular crime